blinds open

So here is a time when I am going to be completely transparent. The blinds to my thoughts and emotions are going to be open for the next half hour or so that I take to do this blog. Then, they will be shut again until further notice.

So tomorrow, God willing, will be the day we get to meet your little boy for the first time. I can't wait. It's going to be so awesome to just hold my little boy for the first time and see his face. I have been pretty sentimental tonight though, especially with Liv. It's somewhat sad knowing that today is the last day she'll be our only child. When we put her to bed tonight, it was crazy thinking that when she wakes up tomorrow, her whole world will be changed. She won't be the only center of our universe anymore but she'll now be sharing that with her baby brother. How is she going to react? How are we going to react? What's it going to be like having to share my love and attention with another child? Man our world is going to change in a matter of hours.

Another thing I am struggling with is, how in the world am I going to be a parent to Brayden? It's funny because Liv is only 3 years old but I feel like I was more prepared for being a parent when she was born than I do now. I don't know what it is. Maybe it'll just come naturally like it did with Liv. I hope that I will figure it out because I only have about a day to do so...